They say little knowledge is a dangerous thing, which I suppose something true to dwell about. Little knowledge I gained from the period of nonexistence gives the unambiguous idea that nothing is a surety. Everything changes. The values of friendship, overcoming adversities, hard work, loyalty, passionate and modesty were some of the lessons I learnt not to master, but to understand – as they are all unconditional.

Before you get me wrong, I am not being any melancholic or trying to express my angst over something ambiguous or any sort. I am having the time of my life. I have to.

Leaving blogosphere dusty and not updated is not a reflection of desolation I am having with myself, or my life. But it was indeed a highly significant event despite my days were actually scary and very much daunting. I guess it was a blessing in disguise, as leaving blogosphere to immerse in the colourful real world gave me an unusual opportunity for me to come out from what was used to be a very comfortable and protective shell. When you see yourself doing things effortlessly, maybe you should stop and ponder for something else new. If you don’t find any relevance in the previous line, then make an assumption that I’m talking to myself. I want to do something that requires me doing something, an effort. I have to dig deep, find my own thoughts and opinions and unite them with others to make a singular, but not definite piece of mind – all to open up wounds to discover myself. I have to heal myself.

When things becoming more and more intricate and thorny, I tell myself, I got time. And I would expect someone to pat my back and say hey, time waits for no man. I am learning. I am studying. I learnt that studying and learning are not the same as I used to think.

If time cannot wait for me, I hope my friends can. Friends, the people I have come to love dearly. As I walk, run, march and stumble peacefully in my own unique fashion into my fairly premeditated future, I sing come what may, for I know, I will not, and hope never be alone. I have my friends, and they know who they are. I know they will guide me along with their knowledge, wisdom, patience and love. I hope they know that I love them too.

And I hope, each and every one of them will pray for me as I go through yet another chapter of my life, shaping possibilities and challenging destiny.

This is white – but not empty